Yemaya

This past Friday I went to the beach for a bonfire going away party for a friend. It made me reflect on how old I feel Im getting. As I watched the sun set, all I could think of was how cold it was going to get as soon as the sun went down behind that mountain. But with old age comes experience so I was prepared with socks, a sweater and a blanket. It turned out to be an amazing night out without the boys. I enjoyed the peace and quiet, I was able to think to my self and hear my thoughts clearly. If you are a mom, I recommend you do this ones in while to get some focus and get centered. 

As I took a walk along the beach I came across an offering for the Deity Yemaya from the Yoruba traditions. I felt blessed to be able to witness such an offering. Yemaya is the goddess of the ocean and governs over love, motherhood, children, child bearing and healing, in particular health problems associated with women. If you are facing a situation of the like you may want to go to Yemaya and make an offering. She prefers  fish, fruits (watermelon, cantaloupe, berries, and coconut especially), white wine, all seafood, lettuce, coffee and honey. 

Finding Self Again

Wow!! I know its been such a long time, I didn't even remember the site or what email I used to create this blog. I had to look back at my old On-Line Organizer.

I would like to explain a little about what happened as part of my journey back to self.

I found myself in a relationship with a narcissist. It is said that Empaths fall victim to narcissist fairly easily. So there I was several years into my relationship which I thought was like a fairytale, love at first site. My dream quickly turned into a nightmare. Needless to say that relationship ended with an Attempted Murder police report against my Ex.

As soon as the nightmare was over, I began my journey back to self. It has been a long two years, but I am finally here again. I begin to see a glimpse of self again. I have been doing a lot of work.

• Weight loss: Being in an abusive relationship takes a toll on your emotions and on your body. I found my self emotionally eating. My highest weight was 201, since then I have lost 25lbs and continue to work on my weight. I began to create a healthier lifestyle and eating habits. I usually skip dinner, fasting about 16 hours a day. I eat much healthier, take many supplements, minerals, herbs and the such to keep myself felling heathy. 
• Healing Apprenticeship: I'm in the middle of a year long healing apprenticeship. It is amazing!! I am now a REIKI Practitioner, Crystal Healing Practitioner and working on the Sound Healing certificate. If you are in Los Angeles and would like to book a session please message me or comment below. 
• I'm an Empath: Via my journey back to self, I came to discover I'm an Empath. I'm learning how to deal with other peoples emotions and to be able to differentiate my energy from other peoples. 
• BAR Exam: I'm currently studying for the BAR exam in July 2017. This will be my 3rd time taking the exam. My first time was in 2012 and I was about 120 points off, the second in 2014 was even worse (as it was very close to the end of my relationship and it was a very bad time for me). I've been studying for months now but still feel I'm not ready. June 15th is the deadline for me to pay for it, the fee is close to $1000 including room and food, which I am unable to pay for at the moment. I just keep studying hoping it will all work itself out if it is meant to be. 
• Crafting: I am back to crafting. From making fairy gardens to making healing salves and of course Im back to journaling, reading and organizing my thoughts. I came to a realization that part of the reason I stopped being happy in my relationship was because I stopped doing what made me happy, I stopped taking care of self. But I also see that I did so in an attempt to sustain the relationship. I gave self up for the relationship and that made me unhappy. 

So happy to be back, expect to see more of me :) 

Feronia

This morning I woke up and began a search to find Feronia, she called my attention right away. Ive always thought we are currently in a process of being enslaved if we havent been already. I believe our human rights are being stripped away from us, hence, the reason I will be a Peoples Lawyer once I pass the BAR. Oh, I havent had a chance to share with you, I received the results of my BAR exam in July 2012 and I was not in the list of names which passed the test. I will be taking the exam again in February 2013. Back to my finding, once an attorney I will be fighting for the freedom of those who have been enslaved by our unjust economic and social system. 

Feronia calls to me for all that she represents. 

Feronia—her name is also sometimes spelled Ferronia– is an ancient, pre-Roman, Italian witch goddess. Ruler of the marketplace—a place traditionally associated with witches—she exerts dominion over magic, freedom, and prosperity. Once upon a time, if slaves managed to sit on a stone in her shrine, their freedom was gained. Feronia’s themes are fertility, abundance, earth, freedom, sports and recreation. Her symbols are fire and coals.  This Roman fire Goddess provides fertility and abundance during even the harshest of times. When boredom sets in, she arrives with arms bearing festive energies and earth’s riches as a ‘pick-me-up’. According to Roman tradition, She is also the patroness and liberator of slaves, or of anything that allegorically enslaves us.

Feronia is to set you free from the chains that bind you. Free from stress, worry, tension, insecurity, doubt, blocked emotion and any other limitations that enslave you and prevent you from achieving your true potential.

Every November 13, the Plebeian games opened in Rome with all manners of sport competitions. This festival also honored the Goddess Feronia and her liberating nature.  Mirroring this theme, get outside and do something physical to release any anger or tension you bear. Give it into Feronia’s care so She can transform it into healthful energy.

Carry a piece of coal today to generate a little of Feronia’s abundance in all your efforts. Keeping this near your stove (or any fire source, like the heater) maintains this Goddess’s energy in your home year-round. If a day comes when you have a really pressing need, burn the coal in Feronia’s liberating flames to release the magic for fast manifestation.

If you find your inner reserves waning with the winter’s darkness, light a candle sometime today to invoke Feronia’s vitality. Better still, light it for a few minutes each day until you feel your energy returning.”

(Patricia Telesco, “365 Goddess: a daily guide to the magic and inspiration of the goddess”.)